As I journey deeper in to Lent this year I am more and more convinced that the whole point of this season is not about what I give up or sacrifice but about how I relate to God, or probably more importantly a revelation of how God sees me.
I pause to ponder what frees me, what releases me from the things that hold me back, what helps me to see the potential in myself that God sees....
Will abstaining from chocolate or wine, or bacon, or crisps help me with this, will a 40 day fast begin to make a difference? Now I am not criticising those who feel that they have been truly called to fasting, but I do wonder about our practice of abstinence when all it does is make us feel more holy; even more I am concerned for those who begin well but feel they have failed when they succumb to what they see as temptation.
I hear God's word:
"I’m after love that lasts, not more religion. I want you to know God, not go to more prayer meetings."
Hosea 6:6 The Message
... and I begin to wonder if we have ever understood. What does it mean to know God, to be known by God, to be accepted and loved, to be met with mercy, grace, and forgiveness?
I now know that there is nothing I can do to make myself holy, there is nothing I can do to make God love me more than he already does, that there is nothing I can do to make myself acceptable, for I am loved, received and accepted just as I am. It has taken me years to understand this in a deep way, to delve beyond the surface of my own inconsistencies.
I now know that more than anything God wants me to know in a deep way that the Spirit testifies with my spirit that I am a much loved, cherished and accepted child of God...
Giving up chocolate, wine, crisps or even bacon butties makes no difference to this, nor does a 40 day fast...
More than anything I desire to know and to be known;
God’s Spirit touches our spirits and confirms who we really are. We know who he is, and we know who we are: Father and children. And we know we are going to get what’s coming to us—an unbelievable inheritance! We go through exactly what Christ goes through. If we go through the hard times with him, then we’re certainly going to go through the good times with him!
Over at Revgals Songbird asks us: Twenty years ago, I was on a Pastoral Search Committee, and one of the questions we asked the ten candidates we interviewed in the first round was to tell us their three favorite passages of scripture. I loved hearing the variety of verses quoted and even learned some that I didn't know, such as the last line of one of this week's lectionary passages:
He has told you, O mortal, what is good; and what does the LORD require of you but to do justice, and to love kindness, and to walk humbly with your God? (Micah 6:8)
For today's Friday Five, list your five favorite passages/verses from the Bible and tell us something about why you love them.
First I'd like to tell you a bit about my encounter with the Scriptures, I did not go to Sunday School as a young child, in fact church did not feature in my life at all. When I was 12 I can remember an intense desire to own a Bible and pestered my mum until she took me to buy one. I remember being faced with a shelf full of Bibles and did not know which to choose, in the end I picked out a pretty KJV with impossibly small print.
I set out to read that impossibly small print thinking that the way to read it was cover to cover, needless to say I get giving up, but I kept trying ... The Scriptures really came alive to me though when my son Chris was diagnosed with congenital heart disease, with the help of a Congregational Church Minister I bought a New International Version Bible and began to mine it's pages for words of life and promises, that brings me to the first verse on my list:
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1. John 11: 4 "When he heard this, Jesus said, “This sickness will not end in death. No, it is for God’s glory so that God’s Son may be glorified through it.”- I am not really one to lift verses out of context but this promise leapt from the page as I sat next to Chris's intensive care bed when he was only 2 years old. Through the years it has been a verse we have clung to and occassionally hurled at heaven in desperation. Next week Chris starts a course to explore a call to ordained ministry; to God be the glory! You can read Christopher's own testimony here.
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2. The second verse I have chosen is one that I often pray, taken from the story of the Woman at the well from John 4, this verse speaks about worship. To do it justice I offer you part of the passage:
19 “Sir,” the woman said, “I can see that you are a prophet. 20 Our ancestors worshiped on this mountain, but you Jews claim that the place where we must worship is in Jerusalem.”
21 “Woman,” Jesus replied, “believe me, a time is coming when you will worship the Father neither on this mountain nor in Jerusalem. 22 You Samaritans worship what you do not know; we worship what we do know, for salvation is from the Jews. 23Yet a time is coming and has now come when the true worshipers will worship the Father in the Spirit and in truth, for they are the kind of worshipers the Father seeks.24 God is spirit, and his worshipers must worship in the Spirit and in truth.”
Firstly I love this whole encounter and have written about it several times, buthe verse concerning worship- that true worshippers will worship in Spirit and in truth really stands out, in what I believe is a spiritually thirsty world people need to encounter true worship! And true worship is what we are called to. We are constantly asked what it might look like- I think that,that question is the wrong one, rather we should ask ourselves, how should this be, or where is my heart when I come before God...
3. The third verse I have chosen is this from Matthew 11:28-30 :
28-30"Are you tired? Worn out? Burned out on religion? Come to me. Get away with me and you'll recover your life. I'll show you how to take a real rest. Walk with me and work with me—watch how I do it. Learn the unforced rhythms of grace. I won't lay anything heavy or ill-fitting on you. Keep company with me and you'll learn to live freely and lightly."
Taken from The Message version of the Bible this verse sustained me through depression, and still sustains me through tiredness and discouragement, it holds within it echoes of the divine dance ( Perichoresis) that God invites us to participate in. I love the picture of relaxing into the rythms of grace, of learning in Christ to live freely and lightly...
In my darkest night this verse kindled a flame that never dies away!
4 . My fourth choice is actually a whole chapter- Genesis 1 with its amazing first verse: In the beginning God! This beautiful poem/song of creation has caused so many arguements, mostly because it has wrongly been treated as fact. Only last week as I began to work through the E100 with our Bible Study class three people expressed amazement at the truth that can be conveyed through mystery and myth, previously they had dismissed any thoughts on Genesis 1 &2 as they had just not been able to accept the simplistic God created the world in 7 days account, as a poem/song they were able to relate to it in a new and exciting way!
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5. Goodness I would love to be able to choose nother 5, or even 10, but this last choice today has to be from 2 Corinthians 4:
5 For what we preach is not ourselves, but Jesus Christ as Lord, and ourselves as your servants for Jesus’ sake. 6 For God, who said, “Let light shine out of darkness,” made his light shine in our hearts to give us the light of the knowledge of God’s glory displayed in the face of Christ. 7 But we have this treasure in jars of clay to show that this all-surpassing power is from God and not from us. 8 We are hard pressed on every side, but not crushed; perplexed, but not in despair; 9 persecuted, but not abandoned; struck down, but not destroyed.
We have this treasure in jars of clay... reminds me that I am fragile and vulnerable, weak and prone to mistake, and yet God has trusted me with the good news, his treasure is in me, and will shine through me...
To quote Anthony. B. Robinson from "Good News in Exile"... describing his search for a new way of talking about conversion, seeking out a Biblical response to people's longings he says:
" I believe that new hearts and minds are the level to be working at, and it is at this level that many of our congregations long to be addressed. They are waiting I believe for their pastors to say: People something is at stake here, something that makes all the difference in the world"
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