I am not sure how to truly name this post; it is the result of reflection and meditation and the bulk of it comes in the form of a prayer. It comes from a reawakening of a sort, an acknowledgement of the uniqueness of Christ, which while it is something I have not denied the focus on the lover of MY soul had become somewhat muted in an attempt to distance myself from an ineffective it is all about me thinking that limits the love of God to a chosen few.
It is an acknowledgement that I cannot live a life of love and faith on my own, a desire to be reoriented, re-centered upon Christ as the source of my salvation, and from a desire to restate the uniqueness of the Christian faith; I find myself praying Peter's words; "to whom shall we go, you have the words of eternal life..."
I can't really explain it, it is a heart thing, so I offer my prayer;
You did not shrink
from the cross,
and though you struggled with death
you overcame,
but went there for love,
even love for me...
this is hard to grasp,
more comfortable to overlook,
to rush to resurrection,
or even to dwell with
the cold sleep of the
Saturday tomb
than to face the agony of the cross,
Love in self giving
sacrificial action,
bleeding dying,
even for me...
you are not my personal Saviour alone,
Yet you are mine,
I am yours,
and you are mine,
there can be no other,
it is you who invites me into life,
you whose outstretch arms
embrace me,
you who have given all
for all,
even for me...
Help me then to receive your love,
your life, your fullness,
Plant your love
in the depths of my heart,
let it grow and flow,
let it burn and surge
compelling me to life,
to love,
to the unforced rythms of grace,
set on you,
in you,
my one focused centre,
my love,
my life