I began the day with a blood test- not such a great way to start the day, but hopefully the reasons for my tiredness and feelings of something just not being right will be unearthed, and something can be done about it.
Back home to breakfast and work ( it was a fasting blood test), I did some work on Sundays service, dropped of my service plan to be printed and then headed into Kings Lynn at lunch time, getting home at around 2pm feeling seriously peopled out!
One of my Christmas presents was the DVD Into the Great Silence, and having the house to myself I decided to watch it this afternoon, after a busy morning it is hard to explain the sense of stillness that the DVD invokes. It is something I need to watch again. I need silence, real silence in my life, quiet is not enough, I need to find a place where I can unveil myself before God, and there are times when I produce so may different masks and layers that I am unsure who that true self is! We have so many props and hiding places in this life that I seriously question whether self awareness and self knowledge is attainable to any real depth without effort. .... and so I seek silence, a place to listen to my heart, and to hear what is on Gods heart, to become a new creation. If only we could see in ourselves the potential that God sees!
YOU RESCUED ME, and picked me up,
A living hope of grace revealed,
A life transformed in righteousness,
O Lord You have rescued me.
Forgiving me, You healed my heart,
And set me free from sin and death.
You brought me life, You made me whole,
O Lord, You have rescued me.
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And You loved me before I knew You,
And You knew me for all time.
I’ve been created in Your image,
O Lord.
And You bought me, and You sought me,
Your blood poured out for me;
A new creation in Your image,
O Lord.
You rescued me, You rescued me.
(Geoff Bullock 1992)
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