My last post was about changes, but this post is about fear of no changes, my heart was chilled when the Brompton Hospital rang today with news of Chris's cardioversion, the question that entered my head was ..."what if"... what if things go wrong, what if plans and dreams ( specifically Chris's ) crumble to dust again...
Is God the same, can He/ she take my rage and tears?
I pray the answer is yes for I will need strong arms and bottomless comfort=rt if all goes wrong...
I fear the hospital for all does not go a planned, we have lived through that before, and yet that does not change eternity, it simply tears at may heart, and forces me to cling tighter to faith... to echo Peter's words..." to whom shall we go? You have the words of eternal life....."
There is no other way...
Well-formed love banishes fear. Since fear is crippling, a fearful life—fear of death, fear of judgment—is one not yet fully formed in love. ( 1 Jn 4:18)
