Today has been very unproductive, waiting for someone to come out of surgery has the effect of freezing time- so time was officially frozen until I knew all was well and left to see Chris in Kings Lynn.
He is OK but in a lot of pain- currently taking both morphine and tramadol- his oxygen sats are low- but that is hardly surprising considering he only has two functioning heart chambers... we hope he will be home tomorrow- but he will need a lot of extra care and help.
I should be used to the worry by now- but no matter how small it is seeing your child in pain and being able to do nothing but hold their hand is not easy- I guess it shouldn't be....
... God watched his Son die for us.... Jesus voluntarily embraced the pain- love compelled him to do so.... I get a picture of the Holy Spirit somehow encompassing the whole event in and through it, grieving and comforting, bringing hope and compassion... God the giver, the sacrificer, and comforter.... God has been with me today, just as he was last summer, just as he has been through all of Christopher's operations and illnesses....
... and I repeat what I spoke to the surgeons in summer 2005- death is not the end, nor is our vulnerability or frailty... for the resurrection is a reality... there is more to life than this, and our frail bodies can be , will be raised, restored, made whole, in a new place, a new kingdom a new way, by faith I believe this...
... by faith I am made whole....
