It has been a strange day- Tim woke early to drive in to Wesley House, the twins have been out at college, Paul went to Thetford to visit Rosabella (taking her a birthday present, she is 3 tomorrow)... Chris slept in he'd had a busy day on Sunday and needed the rest...
I managed some housework, made some important calls and sorted myself out for the week ahead- this included a time of prayer and heart searching, later I was helped by a good friend whose wisdom and loving attitude I really valued and needed today. ( thanks L)!
This evening I went to Linton to run a training session for the Journey Into Wholeness group there, we spent a good time in prayer, then looked at the ethos and practise of the Journey Into Wholeness project- followed by a time looking at praying for people when they come to the stand, how to relate to people who express a very different spirituality and at using the Jesus Deck as a tool to dialogue and sharing the gospel message.
The training was very rewarding and well received, they engaged well with the Jesus Deck, spending some time ministering to one another through it, and being amazed how God spoke!
I know from this that I am called to preach and teach and that I cannot, must not allow anything to come between me and that call, for through it I acknowledge that it is Christs love that compels me and he calls me to to share his love... and having received forgiveness and grace poured over me again,,, I am in the words of Note for a Child asking-
Can you make me live? Can your words be true?
Can you take this heart? Can you make it new?
Why can I not change all the pain I see?
Why do I do wrong? Is there something wrong with me?
My head is in my hands, the tears fall down my face,
Why do you forgive? Why cover me with grace?
How can I not search all these mysteries?
Forgive my unbelief, help me to believe
Driving down to Linton along the Ely road the sun was setting- and I was treated to an amazing fenland sunset- the sky wag golden and all the clouds were cast with a silver lining- I wish I'd had my camera with me, but I don't think I could do it justice! Coming home and I needed to detour- there was an accident on the A142, so I headed up the A11 around Thetford- driving through Thetford forest at night is always atmospheric- the deer feed at the roads edge- driving should be carried out respectfully through the Forest!
So today has been a day of repentance and restoration-I have made fresh steps on my Journey towards wholeness, and I am seeking to be a sign post to others
... by His grace ... I am what I am... and He will lead me on...